Time Made Tangible

My days are filled with the ephemera of spreadsheets, memos, emails, phone calls and presentations, all so easily lost and forgotten with the flick of a switch. All transitory. With evening comes balance and recovery. Most evenings after all my work and teaching and chores are done and the kids are in bed, I sit down on the couch, put my feet up, and choose a knitting project to work on. Knitting transforms spare time into a tangible, useful object, solidifying the ideas and effort expended. There are several on the go; a quick dishcloth, a shawl, a sweater. Small, medium, large; easy, intermediate, advanced. Which one wins depends on my mood and how much time is left before bed. The texture and colours matter. Maybe a bright pick-me-up, or a soothing neutral shimmer, or minimalist monochrome. Instant gratification of quick completion usually wins. After that, the satisfaction of finishing touches.

Meanwhile, on go my headphones with the latest audiobook, (this week it is Fierce Conversations by Susan Craig Scott M.D.), or the classical playlist of the month from Year of Wonder by Clemency Burton-Hill. Perhaps some moody piano by Chilly Gonzales or a sacred mass from the Renaissance, or a guided meditation. Washing away the arguments and egos of the day. Recovering a sense of capability and accomplishment.

Peckham’s Lake and Old Ugly

Peckham’s Lake and Old Ugly

A brief memoir of my childhood in the 1970’s and early 1980’s.

family at peckhams

All of us with Dad at Peckham’s Lake, around 1986 or 1987. Photo by Mom. This must have been taken in early spring, judging from the snow pants and K-Ways.


When I think about my early childhood I remember the long, sunny days spent adventuring with my dad in Old Ugly, his 1965 Mercury pickup lovingly restored and painted two-tone green with a matching canopy. Red accents. Restored by dad, who was always tinkering with something mechanical. Motorbikes, the moonstone-painted Duster that he repainted in Mr. McConnachie’s garage, a black Camaro with a blower sticking out of its hood and Bondo holding it together, the Oldsmobile Delta 88 that he put a diesel engine into to replace the V8 gas engine. Painted deep sparkle purple with a beige Naugahyde roof. Old Ugly was our favourite though, with its big old-fashioned steering wheel, analogue gauges, and single cab. We all had to pile in, with the dog on the floor. Mom refused to go with us. She might follow us in the red K-Car, or just come out later.

Old Ugly was a 1965 Mercury restored by my Dad

Basil, our fat beagle, travelled on the floor, farting and getting in the way of our feet. Once he laid down on the gas pedal, causing alarm as dad approached a 50-km/hr sharp corner at full speed. When Basil lay down it took a crane to move him, unless you were panicking at the thought of a crash. His full name was Sir Basil Bigfoot, a purebred beagle, ruined by life with an average family that never set foot at a dog show. Mom chose his name and we all loved it. She also made a lot of our clothes. She was a good seamstress.

Dad drove too fast all the way past Fort Steele, turned at the gas station then along the back road out to Peckham’s Lake, our favourite picnic spot. Taking out a bottle of beer as we got close, getting me to pop off the top, and then telling me to hold the wheel along a straight stretch while he hung out his window and waved with both arms to Mom in the car behind us. Knowing it would cause her to have a fit. She usually stayed home for this reason.

Now they call it “Norbury Lake Provincial Park”, but we still call it Peckham’s. The water was like ice, straight from the glacier back behind in the Steeples Rocky Mountains looming above us. No chance of leeches in that cold water. We hated leeches.

There was a big farmer’s field at Peckham’s Lake, stretching for ages, golden and dry in the late summer. Green and brown in late spring. Basil would immediately run away into the field, following his nose, coming back much later covered in the cow pies he so loved to roll in. Dad would throw him into the lake, cursing. Damn stinking dog, you can ride in the back. We arrived early to get the best spot, staked our claim around the picnic table in the sun with the bit of lawn for our towels. Swim for hours, not noticing the cold, then sleeping in the sun, no sunscreen, no hats, until we were baked and had to jump back in the lake to cool off again.

fat basil

Sir Basil Bigfoot

The field was the best place to launch our model rockets, by far. No-one came out there in spring or fall, no-one to interfere or say we shouldn’t be doing that. The rockets blasted higher than we could see, their B- and C-engines flaming, pieces falling off as they flew. Sometimes the parachutes didn’t work and the remaining rocket crumpled back to earth. Sometimes they did but the wind caught them and they sailed into the trees at the far end of the field. Dad always had more, more pieces, more parts, let’s build a few more. It’s a miracle our rockets didn’t cause a grass fire or loss of an eye.

Dad told stories of his own childhood, of making gunpowder with saltpetre and fertilizer from the hardware store, pouring a line of it across the road in Cranbrook, waiting for a car to come, then lighting it. Terrifying the driver, mumbled something about a shit-swearing from his dad. My dad’s pranks are probably one of the reasons for all the warnings and restrictions that ruin childhood today. Back then it was all fun and games until someone lost an eye – literally. Firecrackers, gunpowder, bonfires, racing cars, wrecking things. Those were the days, he said, when things didn’t come with warning labels, and you had to use your brain to survive.

35 years later, dad restores Kawasaki motorcycles and turns wooden bowls in his workshop, with his two small dogs for company. His new wife keeps all in order. They are happy, living life.

Recently, I drove my daughters and my sister along the same route during summer, past Fort Steele, to the Kootenay Trout Hatchery for a tour and to feed the giant rainbow trout, back to Peckham’s Lake for a chilly swim. How could we ever stand the cold? My sister and I laugh, escaping from the water. We’ve become soft and spoiled. Seat belts mandatory, no bottles of beer, no rockets, but many memories and much laughter.

Dad in Old Ugly

Dad in Old Ugly


Planning a Writing Year, 2018

Updated May 16, 2018…

Lifelong learning is one of my core values. Every year, I budget for courses, conferences, and books on subjects I’m passionate about: writing, knitting & crochet, and music. Then I map out my year. Lately, I’ve been burning out, working a lot of overtime, and neglecting myself. Today it was time to re-visit my goals and work on my plan.

By design, I live in a creatively fertile area, the West Kootenays of BC. There are all kinds of local events to take in. If you want to see spectacular mountain scenery and soak in some culture, this is the place to be. I’ve posted links to each event or resource for you.

Here is a partial map of my year:


Intensive knitting and crochet, exploring historical patterns and modern techniques. Writing for my blog, Blueberry Creek Crafts: https://blueberrycreekcrochet.com/



DIY MFA Book Club series: https://diymfa.com/



FREE, online creative journaling course, through my local library: https://castlegar.bc.libraries.coop/

-Update: I tried this course, but it was terrible, full of outdated information and with course notes that read like a collection of plagiarized websites. Not recommended.


Flash Memoir Writing, Selkirk College, Nelson BC, starting April 7th, 2018: http://selkirk.ca/ce/courses/arts-culture/writing

-Update: the course was cancelled. I was the only person registered! What a shame.


Vortext at Hedgebrook, May 4-6th, Washington, USA: http://www.hedgebrook.org/vortext/

(I really hope to attend Vortext, but may not be able to due to other events happening in May.)

-Update: I didn’t attend Vortext because I found a local conference sponsored by the Federation of BC Writers: the St. Eugene Writers Conference, May 10-13th. I participated in Keith Liggett’s “Find Your Voice” workshop and loved it! This week (May 16th) I’m working on some homework Keith assigned.

This month I’m also working on polishing a writing sample for my June event (Convergence). It’s due by the end of the week.


Convergence Writer’s Weekend: Keeping a Civil Tongue, June 15-16, 2018, Silverton, BC:  http://widespot.ca/event/convergence-writers-weekend-keeping-a-civil-tongue/



Elephant Mountain Literary Festival, July 12-15th, 2018, Nelson, BC: http://emlfestival.com/



Kaslo Jazz Festival, August 3-5, 2018: https://kaslojazzfest.com/the-festival/


September to December: yet to be mapped.


What are your plans this year?


Today’s book club prompt is: Celebrate!

I am celebrating the kind rejection letter I received last Saturday from a literary journal. They didn’t find a place for my submission in their upcoming issue but they enjoyed reading my work, and encouraged me to submit again. Rejection letters signify that I wrote and submitted something! This burst of inspiration was the direct result of participating in the DIY MFA book club.

Other things I’m celebrating, because my writing joy spills over into my life and vice versa:

The optimism that comes with longer days and returning birdsong.

Progress in my family’s quest for health and happiness, and our successes so far.

All the writing I’ve been doing, online and off, using book club prompts and DIY MFA prompts, and also the other craft books in my collection.

A renewed sense of determination to complete my memoir, which is in its first draft.

A renewed desire to submit personal essays for publication – to put myself out there, in spite of the inevitable rejection.

All the opportunities and possibilities of life.

Zero Moment

My zero moment was caused by cabin fever in Fort McMurray, Alberta about 15 winters ago. I felt isolated from family and friends and was trapped inside by the cold. That’s when I started blogging, to find community. Now offline, my blog was called Frontier Follies.

We left McMurray a few years later, but the city left an indelible mark on my life. I continued to follow its growth and struggles, and plan to take my daughters there one day. I had hoped to show them our first house, but it’s no longer there. The house, in fact the entire neighborhood we lived in, burned down during the massive forest fire that destroyed much of the city in 2016.

One day I will go back. The city plays a role in multiple generations of my family. It’s the city my mother’s family moved to from England in the 1970’s. It’s the place my parents met, where my eldest daughter was born, and my first marriage began to fall apart.



Making Space for Writing

Making Space for Writing

Yesterday I blogged about my goal of creating an idea bank and an Oracle, and how my office is cluttered and needs work. After posting that entry, I spent the evening organizing and cleaning up my space.

My Idea Bank

I organized all of my favourite writing and inspirational books and personal journals in the side bookcases. The top two shelves are the idea bank. My daughters also use some of these books: you’ll notice two copies of the “Steal Like an Artist” journal. We actually own three, mine and one each for my daughters.

My Oracle

I’ve dedicated one shelf as my shrine to creativity, my Oracle. There’s a family photo at our favourite place, a photo of my great-grandfather, a lace jar cover I designed, the Geez Magazine issue that my first “real” writing was published in (a tiny blurb), a fancy thermometer, an old metronome, a rose quartz skull, my NaNoWriMo 2017 pin, and two collections of index cards I’ve written ideas onto over the years. It needs more work, but here it is:

The rest of the shelves are not exciting – they hold reference books for my professional work.

My Home Office

I work from home a lot for my day job, which requires a dedicated, secure office space. That means I’m lucky enough to have an entire office room just to myself. It’s small but I love it. This is also my primary writing space during the school year.

I keep some inspirational items around my desk, like a beautiful file folder, a pottery mug for my pens, and a crocheted mug coaster. Above the desk is a shelf of artwork I love: a Matisse drawing, my kids’ creations, and photos. My degrees used to live on that shelf, but I moved them to the wall behind my chair this morning, because I would rather see something beautiful when I look up from my work.

The only problem is, our house is also small, and there’s never enough room for all our stuff. My office tends to become a storage room, with bins of yarn, an exercise bike, those damn old curtains, and even my husband’s crossbow. The exercise bike and curtains moved out this morning.

Here is the “corner of shame”, where all that stuff is piled, all the mystery electronics cords live, and the outdated textbooks went to die:

The corner of shame looks much better today. At least I’ve gotten the chaos down to a dull roar. It’s workable now. I spend many hours in this office, so cleaning it up was worth the effort.

My Summer Office and Outdoor Writing Space

Come summer, my family spends a lot of time at our lake place. That’s where my husband feels most at home, and my kids can spend most of their time outdoors instead of glued to a screen. At first it was off-grid (there are no power, cable, water, or gas services available), but my husband installed an independent power system, a cell phone antenna, and satellite tv, so now it’s only off-grid if the power kicks out. My husband is not a reader, and he loves his TV shows. Marriage is all about compromise…he’s a genius in so many other ways. I can live with a TV.

If the weather is nice, and it usually is, I write outside on the deck, overlooking the lake.

If I need to escape from the TV, I retreat to the “bridal suite”:

So that’s it – my writing spaces. They’ve evolved over the years from a lapdesk on the couch to actual, dedicated, beautiful spaces that I love. I can’t wait to see the photos from everyone else posted on the WordNerds Unite page!

DIY MFA Book Club #9: Try a new technique from the DIY MFA book

DIY MFA Book Club #9: Try a new technique from the DIY MFA book

The techniques I chose are the Idea Bank and the Oracle, in Chapter 6.

The Idea Bank

I already keep an electronic notebook where all the webpages, photos, files, and emails that inspire me are stashed. It’s in Microsoft OneNote. The only problem is, I can’t always access this notebook because it usually requires wifi. I need a physical idea bank that can’t die with the iPad battery. I have a few hard-copy books of writing prompts, and they are a start. I’ll organize them on the top shelf of my writing bookcase.

The Oracle

What a romantic idea, the Oracle. A shrine, filled with mementos, photos, and other inspirational items, it is meant to be an evolving collection. Mine will take up some room so it will need a whole shelf to itself. The first things to go in mine will be a photo of my Dad’s old green truck, the rose quartz skull sculpture from my stepmom, a trilobite fossil, a metronome, and my great-grandfather’s WW1 service photo (Private, Canadian army, 8th Battalion).

There’s a shelf in my office, full of outdated textbooks. I think this shelf would be the perfect location for my Oracle. The question is, what to do with the textbooks? No one will want them. It seems a shame to throw them away, but that leads me to my first task: cleaning house.

Cleaning House

My office space is clogged with stuff: binders upon binders full of seminar handouts and training manuals that I’ll never look at again, those outdated textbooks, a pile of stamping and paper crafting supplies that I don’t use any more, and some old curtains that my husband refuses to throw away. (Those are on top of a pile of yarn in a bin.) Why am I allowing all this old, useless stuff to take up valuable space and energy? It drains me just looking at it. Especially the binders, a zillion binders full of memories of boring corporate cubicles and toxic workplace cultures. It will feel amazing to purge it from my house and from my life. I’m sure I’ll find a few inspiring mementoes along the way, to keep, because there’s another bookshelf hidden behind all that junk.

DIY MFA book club: Origin Story

DIY MFA book club: Origin Story

The first writing prompt of the DIY MFA book club is to tell your origin story. How did you become a writer?

At first, I only posted a comment on the Word Nerds Unit discussion:

As a child, I wrote all kinds of stories and kept a journal, but lost sight of it as school and career went in another direction. I became a writer again to find community, when I was living in an isolated northern town. Blogging about my passions and struggles was a way to connect with others. Keeping a journal helps me make sense of life. Eventually, writing became a specific focus.

Here is my story, in more detail.

I became a writer as a child, keeping journals, and writing my own stories in school and at home. Essays and non-fiction were my favourites. In grade 5, I won a provincial essay contest (choosing the provincial tree of British Columbia) and received a book on the Forests of British Columbia as a prize.

At times withdrawn and shy, I spent a lot of time reading anything I could get my hands on. Reader’s Digest condensed novels, Tin Tin comics, all of the Hardy Boys and Nancy Drew series, the Hobbit, the Lord of the Rings books, countless sci-fi and fantasy novels. My mother and grandparents valued books and learning, and kept us supplied. I became a fan of the local public library, and later worked there as a summer student. Reading and journal-keeping continued throughout my life, but the story-writing fizzled. I studied piano and music theory, and that took much of my time.

One day in my college years, I was working at the gas station. An older lady came to the till and recognized me. She had been my second or third grade teacher, Mrs. Unrau. When I told her I was studying science, she was surprised. “I always thought you would be a writer,” she said. Writing didn’t seem a viable career choice for me at the time, and I continued in science and then engineering. I just couldn’t picture a life as a writer, or as any kind of creative type. Engineering seemed like a sure bet.

Engineering was a sure bet, with good pay and job stability, until my children were born. We lived in an isolated Northern town, where I began blogging, if only to find community. As life continued, it became so difficult to balance family and career that everything fell apart. My first marriage failed and my career was stagnating. Painful changes led to new beginnings. I trained for a new career, one with more flexible time and location requirements. It took three years to complete. All the time, my creative brain tried to break through, in knitting projects, journals, blog posts, piano, and finally, writing a draft children’s story for my daughters. I just couldn’t seem to finish anything, because there was never enough time.

Time seemed like the enemy, until the realization that my schedule was under my control.

I simply had to make room in my schedule and my life. Sounds glib, but it worked. After completing the accounting designation, I decided then to make room in my life and my schedule for creativity, to seriously commit to it. My children were older and less dependent, and my day job allowed financial stability to pursue my passions. Each goal is a small step toward my vision. I took up piano lessons again. I completed several online writing courses, in things like memoir writing, creative writing, journalism, editing, and creative non-fiction. The pleasure of setting and achieving each small goal is worth the work.

Someday, I will write and publish a book. Until then, I am happy to write in my journal, gather information through reading and observation, and learning through living.

DIY MFA Book Club: Reading like a writer

Reading has been so integral to my life, all my life, that I’ve acquired a LOT of books. Thankfully most are now digital. My husband would probably not stand for more physical books in the house. I’m also a serial library borrower. Here are the ways I find, organize, and track my reading.


I keep a long list of books to read in Goodreads, an app that is actually useful for tracking and finding books. It travels with me and links to my Kindle. I would like to add shelves to match the DIY MFA Reading List worksheet.


My Kindle…I couldn’t live without it. When I need to read without distractions of email or texting, I use my Kindle Paperwhite. When I need full colour or larger pages (for children’s books or music scores), I use the Kindle app on my iPad. The Kindle is a library that fits in my purse. It stores hundreds of my books, organized into collections of Music, History, Writing, Memoir, Kootenay Book Weekend, Crochet & Knitting, Health, Editing, Freelance, “Various Fluff and Crappy Fiction”, and Kids. After reading this section in the DIY MFA book (which is part of my Writing collection), I am going to add the four categories from Gabriela’s Reading List Worksheet.



More recently, audiobooks have become my go-to for the times when my hands and eyes are occupied with other tasks (driving, knitting, cooking). My library has a collection that I access via the Overdrive app for free. I also subscribe to Audible.ca, where I source the audiobooks that aren’t available through the library. Stephen King’s book On Writing is a favourite. Also, it’s a great way to explore new fiction, provided the book is conducive to reading aloud (not all are).

On that note, audiobooks have pros and cons. On the pro side, obviously they make books accessible to those with vision limitations. They are great for road trips and knitting sessions, as well.

On the con side, I’ve found my enjoyment of an audiobook greatly depends on whether I like the narrator’s voice and style. A poor performance can ruin the experience. Also,  you can’t see the words on the page, their spelling, arrangement, typeface, or illustrations. As a result there is the potential loss of context and the visual experience which may be integral to the story.


My DIY MFA Reading List

Today I started to build my reading list, DIY MFA style. Here are a few of the entries:

Craft Books

I admit to having a large collection of these.

  • On Writing, by Stephen King
  • DIY MFA, by Gabriela Pereira
  • Writing is My Drink, by Theo Pauline Nestor
  • A Writer’s Book of Days, by Judy Reeves
  • The Art of Memoir, by Mary Karr
  • A Writer’s Workbook, by Caroline Sharp
  • 1,000 Creative Writing Prompts, by Bryan Cohen
  • Life Source Writing, by Lynda Monk
  • Maps of the Imagination: The Writer as Cartographer, by Peter Turchi
  • Writing Down the Bones, by Natalie Goldberg
  • Eats, Shoots & Leaves by Lynne Truss
  • On Writing Well, by William Zinsser
  • plus a collection of books of prompts for journaling and creative writing

Competitive Titles

  • None specifically identified, because my ideas are not yet well defined.

Contextual Books

  • Barkskins, by Annie Proulx
  • Other books on life in the days of Upper Canada
  • The Compleat Rancher, by Russell Bennett
  • Ghost Train to the Eastern Star, by Paul Theroux
  • Cariboo-Chilcotin: Pioneer People and Places, by Irene Stangoe
  • The Range Men: Pioneer Ranchers of Alberta, by Leroy Kelly
  • The Ride Together: A Brother and Sister’s Memoir of Autism in the Family, by Paul Karasik


Contemporary Books

Note: most of these are more than 3 years old, and aren’t technically contemporary.

  • Wild, by Cheryl Strayed


  • Madame Bovary, by Gustave Flaubert
  • The Grapes of Wrath, by John Steinbeck
  • On the Shortness of Life, Seneca
  • The Meditations of Marcus Aurelius
  • The Winter of Our Discontent, by John Steinbeck
  • Moby Dick, by Herman Melville


If you want to read more about this, go to: DIY MFA Book


DIY MFA Book Club: Resistance as my compass

DIY MFA Book Club: Resistance as my compass

Gabriela Pereira posits that resistance to writing about an idea comes from fear, and the desire for self-preservation. If your writing project presents risk, either in embarrassment, or in offending others, or whatever, fear results. Writing in itself doesn’t present an actual physical danger in the moment, so why are we afraid to write?

In my life, resistance arises whenever I examine my own family history. It is both external and internal resistance. External, in the form of certain key family members deliberately withholding information. Internal, in part because I’m scared to find out what lurks beneath and what that could say about me. I believe those key family members ( my own mother included) are afraid of what the facts might reveal about themselves and their own motives and choices. Dig just a little in my parents’ and grandparents’ generations, and the sordid details of divorces and affairs, alcoholism, family violence and abuse are easily revealed. Dig more, and forgotten siblings who were abandoned to institutions turn up, exposing the harsh realities of stigma attached to mental disability.

Part of my journal project is to closely examine the facts and opinions of the past and how they led to my present reality. How did these events influence the direction of each of my ancestors? What led to their choices and decisions? Did their paths cross with ancestors of my husband?

Like many Canadians, my family tree quickly leads outside of Canada to unexpected locales, within 2 generations. Some ancestors were missionaries in China during the 1920’s. Others were working people in various parts of the U.K. and Western Europe. Still others were homesteaders and pioneers in the “wild” West, in the USA and Canada.

There is so much to explore and learn. I won’t allow the resistance (internal or external) stop me.